NS should not be made compulsory for women for the sake of career advancement, PM Lee said.

More and more lady bosses and more and more men are late bloomers thanks to NS.
Reservist is such a waste of time, energy and resources.

Imagine we going up to our bosses, explaining why we cannot take up this big project because we cannot keep deferring our annual call-up and he says ok and pass this big project to your lady colleague and she will ask u for advice and u guide her along and when the big project is a success, who gets the credits , HER ! and u ? a big thank you.
she gets her promo and u are stuck in ya job wondering why we are not being promoted !

well..that is what our PM wants. Women needs the career advancement and men do not !

History is in the making. LOLX

I passed driving on 03/09/09 I and its at my first attempt !! Okay, maybe its about time that i should drive but still I was really elated. *jumps for joy*

Can you imagine sitting in the waiting area for 10minutes while time crept by and I was there waiting in high anticipation and excitement.
The unfriendly tester called my name and we walked to the car. He is a big mumbler and I keep saying "HUH" to him, guess he was pretty irritated. lolx .

Anyway, I passed with 8 demerit points (18points to fail). lolx. So happy and grateful to my wonderful instructors at SSDC. :):)

Picked up my temporary license and I am finally a qualified driver with a SHINY "P" Plate !! lolx

My family will be my first passengers tonight !!!

窗外开始下起毛毛雨
云遮住了星星
夜深了还没有睡意
翻来覆去地想你
时钟嘀嗒嘀嗒的声音
像在说我爱你
转过两点三点到六点
恨不得快点见到你
幸福的距离
就算万公里
在你眼里有我想要的勇气
从南极飞到北极
南京到北京
你的笑胜过那些美景
我们勾勾手 就一言为定
我会傻傻地好好地爱你
你的名加我的姓
永远在一起
拥抱多过千言万语

I am not suicidal or anything but in fact, I am rather happy and relieved these few days.

I do not know how many of you out there went to a funeral and would think about how you would behave if its someone close to you lying there , well at least I know I would, i even think of who will be at the funeral... especially at mine.

I have plans for my funeral. I want a orange and brown theme as it was my favorite colours.

I want a dark coloured coffin and i want light make up on my face as I lay there. I do not want people to see how thick my make-up would be like(unglam la!!!).

as a christian, I want my funeral to be filled with laughter and as people celebrate my life with me. I hope someone close to me will give me a good euology.

I even thought of a sample one :

Some of you here,lost a son, a brother and a colleague but I am pretty sure that everyone here lost a friend, a friend who is always there for you, a friend who makes you smile. As we gather today, let's not cry for him cause I am sure Aaron wants to you to be happy as he is right now with the Lord, let's celebrate his life for him. Shall we give 3 cheers for him?
Hip Hip Hurray (3x)

Cliche? ya , it seems. but oh well, its my funeral. hehe.

MORBID ? abit la...but its ok, i just want plans to be made.

Last but not least, I want my ashes to be scattered in any form that is possible. I want to go back to the nature.

Thanks!

In such bad economic times, sales are really getting harder and harder. Clients are expecting more and lower prices and there is no support from my own team which is practically decreasing in size. CPF cuts seem never being able to be reinstated and the boss is breathing down my neck despite me working my ass off. Colleagues are receiving threats to be sacked and are contemplating to resign.

I do not know I was depressed until someone close to me told me that I do not seem happy in my smses recently.

People might be surprised that I am feeling this way because I behaved normally in front of people, maintaining a facade , acting smiley and talking like all is fine ; even consoling or encouraging people. I am totally fine but deep down this is how I feel...

Read on...

Signs of depression

Sign 1 : Feeling hopeless and useless
All these lack of sales seems to push me towards thinking that I am useless and worthless, making me feel like I am a liability to the world and edged me to think that at an age where my counterparts are doing better yet I am still not even stable in my career thus far. No one believes in me...no one. Seeing so many events in the country but yet I have no hand in it.... i am really useless

Sign 2 : Thoughts that life is not worth living, or have a plan for how you would end it.
Enough said. I thought of just ending it all....like a running thought

Sign 3 : Can't sleep enough
For the past few nights, I could not stop thinking about work and when the pressure sets in, I can't sleep till the wee hours.

Sign 4 :can't control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
I was thinking about my work at nights and start tearing for no apparent reasons. I used to be confident and smiley and now, where are they ?

Sign 5 : you are constantly irritated or become enraged even at small things – and this is new for you 
This is not new but I think my colleagues and some closer to me knows that my fuse is getting shorter and shorter.

Ok....congrats , I am just a situational depressed case (I hope).

I am writing this . not to ask for sympathy or make you guys worried or concerned. In fact if you do, that will make me feel worse, making me feel useless that I cannot even make people around me happy.

Thanks....

There bound to be alot of first times in our lives and today I did 2 first things in my life.

For years I have been sitting at the end of the table, fending off questions from all shapes and sizes and colors of interviewers, from small SMEs to MNCs. Today I finally conducted my first interview, though its only lasted for 30mins, I realised it was rather mentally draining. As job offers officially opened today, I must gear myself towards more.

And also for years again, I been shelving my driving plans but I stood firm and went down in March to book. Today, I had my first practical lesson, although its a bit expensive , the 2 hours are totally worth it. I was taught about the basics of the car and I get to move the car today. Did steering, turnings, accelerating and braking and it was really fun.

Looking forward to both interviews and driving !! :):):)

For the longest of time, people have been asking me what does blazy means and why II chose it as my nickname and I do not have a good answer and out of boredom,I went online and I found an answer !!!

Definitions from Urban dictionary!

1.	blazy
	(adj.) a disgruntled worker who always talks about burning down/blowing up his or her place of employment, but never actually does.

2.	blazy
	The condition of behavior in which someone, usually of African descent, is crazy COOL AINT IT ?

Ex-Study Group.Catch-up.Pig out.Sakae Sushi.Tong Shui.Shatec Classmates.Totally Fun.Looking Forward

1. Pass driving test by end of the year.

2. To bring 3 friends to church.

3. Improve my relationships.

4. Slim down !!!! 

My first time doing this :

Company in red.Boss pressurizing.Sales never enough.Big Boys.Volume Sales.No Business.Cheapskate customers.Job risk.

Crumpler Bag.Learn to drive.Keep Smiling.Keep Positivity.Will be fine.

Does it summarize it all ?